how bad do you want this?

I've been challenged by God over the last couple of days regarding quite a few things that are going on in my life and it came to the point tonight where I just had to get it down in some kind of tangible way, and could think of no better way than blogging about it. It's been a while, and I figured this one was worth it.

The title of this one pretty much gives the whole thing away, but it's been the question that God has been asking me all week. I've been praying that I'd get into uni to do medicine and get into the military so I can actually finance it and praying to God that he'd get me in, and the response that I've been getting back has been "How bad do you want this?"

The question led me to the conclusion that I'd better be able to prove it. One of the ways I can is by putting my actions where my mouth is and put the work in to getting ready for this, put the hard yards into training for the physicals and getting my physical endurance up. Putting the time into research and talking to the navy types and getting my knowledge up to scratch about the military and preparedness for the interviews.

The one that really brought myself to the point of writing about this was praying in the car that I really wanted a deeper relationship with God, that I wanted his presence to be written all over my life in a new way... and God came back with "How bad do you want this? well prove it to me!".

There's a couple of things that I'm learning out of this. One is that the scripture that says "Where your treasure is there your heart is" is so true, and the reverse of it works, in that if you want your heart to be somewhere then put your treasure there. Sink your time, your knowledege and your money and treasured things into where you want to be. For me that means spending time on the net researching the job I'm going for, spending time on the phone speaking to military doctors and finding out what they do.

It also means getting down on my knees every night and every morning and praying, reading my bible every day. It's not a religeous thing, but I want my heart to be deeper into God and so I need to put the time in and just do it. It doesn't matter if I'm tired or busy, I need to put my treasure into the places I want to go to.

The second thing I'm learning is that God honours effort. If I put the time in and really work at something that I want He honours that. Sure if I'm not meant to be somewhere in his will then I just won't get there and will end up somewhere else, but if I put the treasure in then God will meet me where I'm at and help me over the line. Mind, it may not be in the timeframe that I think it should be... but that's a whole other story!